It is quiet just like I thought it would be.
I am learning that social media is the worst tool to measure where you are right now as a person, its ok if you aren’t where you wish you would be, social media doesn’t tell you that instead it feeds us with the craze to want to make our stories the same and I decided to fight the tide.
I wish there was a hand book that would tell me how to navigate “Adulthood” especially freshman year.
If its anything to go by, its the realization that I don’t have to beat myself up for not being where I should be.
Its saying no to self-hate and understanding that I am a miracle….
It is straightening this shriveled up body that has always wanted to please everyone and abandoning apologies (thanks ore)
Its enjoying the quiet that comes with my awkward social life.
Its smiling steadily as my Dad for the first time in my life “Says Happy Birthday” to me.
Its saying hang on “kiddo” you may not have all the cake you want and stuff on your wishlist, but you’ll get there.
So here is to me being the best version of my self, to serious soul searching, conscious living and brave decisions.
You are loved infinitesimally by a God who knows what’s up.
Be a Hermit/Recluse/Socially Awkward person all you want, this world is a brighter place because of you.
So I really don’t know how to navigate 23 yet but I know one thing, its going to be the best year yet.
Love And Light